Yesterday was….a day. I woke up from getting 8 hours of sleep, to feeling exhausted. I did not want to get out of bed for the life of me, but I had to for my daughter. That was about all I could muster up for a majority of the day.
Why was I having such a hard time? It could have been my dreams effecting me the way they do most times. It could have just been one of those days. I don’t know for sure. What I do know is I hate those days, and I don’t want them around. My “slothing'” days aren’t fair to my baby girl.
I wasn’t interactive and playing with her like I normally would. I did the bare minimum. I was a bad mom yesterday, and I feel super guilty about it. I know no one is perfect, certainly not me, but I can’t help feeling like I failed.
Even though in the late afternoon/early evening, I managed to scrape up energy to make a nice dinner, do the dishes, do a couple loads of laundry, and vacuum- I could have done better. My daughter deserves better.
Most of my days aren’t like this, but these “slothing around” days make an unannounced appearance weekly. All I can do now is be aware and do better. I have to fight my hardest on those days. I have to deal with those sometimes mysterious emotions and power through my day.
I will not let days like yesterday overpower my today. Today is a new day, and I’m going to make it good one.
Thanks for reading.